Operation Recovery

The Fort Hood Testimony Report

Military Sexual Trauma

Among other topics, the service-members and veterans on this page talked about their own experience with military sexual trauma, or reflected on the effectiveness of the Army’s sexual harassment and assault training.

“(My Commander) said, in front of my counselor, with me in the room, ‘If you had not been drinking that night, you would never have been raped. It is your fault, because you were drinking.’…Nothing was done according to regulation..Honestly, it makes me realize why so many victims do not report.”

Read the full testimony of Rebekah Lampman, US Army veteran, Broadcast Journalist


“I was more or less told, especially when it came to smoking soldiers, and writing them up, to do everything I could to fuck them up without breaking their profile. Like, some people’s profiles say, ‘Run at own pace and distance.’ The Army takes that as, ‘You run until you fucking die.'”

Read the full testimony of Jim Frank*, US Army veteran, NCO

“There is a schoolhouse about a block and a half away. And on Sundays during the school year they’ll test their fire alarm. If my wife is asleep when that sound goes off, she is hearing an alarm for incoming rounds. And I can’t count the number of times she’s thrown herself over me trying to protect me from some round that is forever incoming.”

Read the full testimony of Dan Michaels *, active duty US Army, NCO


“My care began when I was in Iraq, after an incident where I pointed a weapon at somebody, and I had to go see a shrink. They had my weapon back in my hands within three days.”

Read the full testimony of Malachi Muncy, Army National Guard veteran, truck driver


“You cannot have PTSD as a pilot. I mean, kiss your career goodbye. You’re done.”

Read the full testimony of Nicolas Addison *, active duty US Army, Apache pilot


“From the time I said, ‘I want to get out,’ until the time I got home to the VA, I didn’t get any treatment. Alls I got was drugs.”

Read the full testimony of Curtis Sirmans, US Army veteran, Cavalry Scout


“One of my very, very close friends was raped by someone in our barracks. And they kept him in the barracks. They didn’t send him to jail. They didn’t do anything like that. They kept him in the barracks. So every time she saw him in the barracks she’d just freeze, and I’d be like, ‘What’s wrong?’ And then I’d look around, and be like, ‘Oh.’ ”

Read the full testimony of Kimberly MacArthur *, US Army veteran, Systems Intelligence Analyst


“I just decided to pay out of my own pocket to see a neurologist at Central Texas Neurology. I explained to him my situation—that there wasn’t much being done to help me or to evaluate me. The Army can say that they tried to help me by putting me through physical therapy, but they didn’t help me. You can’t put somebody through physical therapy without identifying the problem.”

Read the full testimony of Mitchell Tate *, active duty US Army, Infantry


“We do have one soldier that was handed to me, who actually went to seek help, and he got the help that he was needing. But now they’re looking at trying to chapter him out because of the help that he had to get, and the things that happened to make him finally turn around and say, ‘Hey, I need help.’.’”

Read the full testimony of Reese Stewart *, active duty US Army, NCO


“I had another doctor who just sat in on the weekends and he looked like he was high as a kite, and he looked at me flat-faced when I told him my story, and he said, ‘Well, honestly, I don’t think that the best psychologist would be able to help you. You’re essentially a hopeless case.'”

Read the full testimony of James Cleary *, active duty US Army, Chaplain’s assistant


“In no way am I proud of any of my deployments anymore. I absolutely think that every single deployment I went on did more harm than good—without question.”

Read the full testimony of Brandon Harris *, US Army veteran, Military Police, NCO


“You do take the survey, you do sit down with what they say is a physician. But you sit in a little cubby and they ask you “Are you depressed? Have you hit your head? Have you done this?” And that’s it.”

Read the full testimony of Anja Perry, active duty US Army, Cargo


“Last week I got my rating from the VA finally, after two and a half years of being out of the military. They’re gonna finally rate me at 100%. I’ve been unemployed the entire time, just because of the disabilities I received in deployment.”

Read the full testimony of Devon Sawyer *, US Army veteran, Tanker


“We have to abandon this idea of machismo and become a more intelligent and capable military. Too many biases of individuals have spread throughout the ranks and affected many soldiers who need help.”

Read the full testimony of Max Diaz *, US Army veteran, Cavalry


“I think that war affects the soldier very much, I have no doubt about that. But I think it equally affects the family. Equally, because I could not even describe to you the pain in the wife’s point of view or the child’s point of view, when the soldier acts out.”

Read the full testimony of Shauna Dione *, spouse of an active duty service member