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The Fort Hood Testimony Report

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“I wanted to tell my doctor, ‘These drugs don’t feel good. I don’t want to take these any more, but I don’t know if I can just stop. Or is this a normal feeling? Are the first few days always kind of crazy?’ And I can’t get ahold of him. I don’t have his number. I had to make an appointment for another month out.”

Read the full testimony of Ryan Holleran, US Army veteran, Infantry


“I was more or less told, especially when it came to smoking soldiers, and writing them up, to do everything I could to fuck them up without breaking their profile. Like, some people’s profiles say, ‘Run at own pace and distance.’ The Army takes that as, ‘You run until you fucking die.'”

Read the full testimony of Jim Frank*, US Army veteran, NCO

“My care began when I was in Iraq, after an incident where I pointed a weapon at somebody, and I had to go see a shrink. They had my weapon back in my hands within three days.”

Read the full testimony of Malachi Muncy, Army National Guard veteran, truck driver


“You cannot have PTSD as a pilot. I mean, kiss your career goodbye. You’re done.”

Read the full testimony of Nicolas Addison *, active duty US Army, Apache pilot


“From the time I said, ‘I want to get out,’ until the time I got home to the VA, I didn’t get any treatment. Alls I got was drugs.”

Read the full testimony of Curtis Sirmans, US Army veteran, Cavalry Scout


“One of my very, very close friends was raped by someone in our barracks. And they kept him in the barracks. They didn’t send him to jail. They didn’t do anything like that. They kept him in the barracks. So every time she saw him in the barracks she’d just freeze, and I’d be like, ‘What’s wrong?’ And then I’d look around, and be like, ‘Oh.’ ”

Read the full testimony of Kimberly MacArthur *, US Army veteran, Systems Intelligence Analyst


“I just decided to pay out of my own pocket to see a neurologist at Central Texas Neurology. I explained to him my situation—that there wasn’t much being done to help me or to evaluate me. The Army can say that they tried to help me by putting me through physical therapy, but they didn’t help me. You can’t put somebody through physical therapy without identifying the problem.”

Read the full testimony of Mitchell Tate *, active duty US Army, Infantry


“I had another doctor who just sat in on the weekends and he looked like he was high as a kite, and he looked at me flat-faced when I told him my story, and he said, ‘Well, honestly, I don’t think that the best psychologist would be able to help you. You’re essentially a hopeless case.'”

Read the full testimony of James Cleary *, active duty US Army, Chaplain’s assistant


“Seeing a psychiatrist? That was reasonably easy. You might have had to be on a waiting list, it might take a few weeks unless you were suicidal or homicidal at that moment. But, once you saw the psychiatrist, they gave you the whole cabinet full of pills and they sent you on your way, pretty much.”

Read the full testimony of Mark Simons *, Conscientious Objector


“Last week I got my rating from the VA finally, after two and a half years of being out of the military. They’re gonna finally rate me at 100%. I’ve been unemployed the entire time, just because of the disabilities I received in deployment.”

Read the full testimony of Devon Sawyer *, US Army veteran, Tanker


“We have to abandon this idea of machismo and become a more intelligent and capable military. Too many biases of individuals have spread throughout the ranks and affected many soldiers who need help.”

Read the full testimony of Max Diaz *, US Army veteran, Cavalry


“I have run across numerous forums and other soldier chat-rooms, where I’ve talked to soldiers at other posts that are going through the exact same stuff that I am. That helps a little bit, it makes me feel better knowing I’m not the only one. But it doesn’t change the fact that this is a severe problem, which needs to be addressed and fixed.”

Read the full testimony of Cory Williams *, active duty US Army, Infantry


“The Army is already saying they can’t help me. It’s kind of weird, because how in the hell are you going to say to me that you can’t help me, when I gave you all of my fricking youth?”

Read the full testimony of Josue Gomez *, active duty US Army, Infantry


“Whenever I used to have to go to sick call, I’d get that scornful look from NCOs. And the stigma never really stops. They would say, ‘Oh, he’s weak. Screw him, he’s weak. He’s trying to find an excuse, he’s trying to malinger.’ It didn’t stop me from getting help though, because at the end of the day, it’s my health.”

Read the full testimony of Jesse Bowe *, US Army veteran, seven years


“I think that war affects the soldier very much, I have no doubt about that. But I think it equally affects the family. Equally, because I could not even describe to you the pain in the wife’s point of view or the child’s point of view, when the soldier acts out.”

Read the full testimony of Shauna Dione *, spouse of an active duty service member


“I tore my back muscles the first day of Basic Training, and they still haven’t healed right. That was 1998. Their whole gearing was return to duty. If they can’t prove something is actually wrong, they won’t send you to a specialist to find out, they’ll just send you back to duty. They give me some Motrin, tell me to have a nice day.”

Read the full testimony of Allen Dunajs * US Army veteran, Infantry, and his wife Clarissa *